on Saturday, June 25, 2011
I've realised something recently.
I haven't felt that I have ever had a 'best friend' in years. And even now, with all my great classmates at SKC, I can never really associate anyone as a 'best friend' anymore.
The only exception to that rule so far is Lavender, though he might not really count, considering he is me, after all.
-Josephina Gaga-a
on Thursday, June 23, 2011
1. Lately, games have brought me no satisfaction at all. I guess it's because of the fact that, for a very, very long time, I won't play a game as great as Portal 2 ever again. At least, not until Valve release some other awesome sequel.
2. The track 9999999 is triggering visions, again. This time, I return to the same place as the last vision, only this time, Lavender appears to be looking down into my coffin. As I approached the coffin, upon seeing the contents... it was my lifeless body. Lavender then looked up at me and spoke. "I knew you would come back..." he said. "You know what to do". "Do what?", I asked, and looked around, and saw shadows everywhere, approaching me, and also noticed that my hands were also covered in blood, gun in one hand. "Go on, join me..."
3. Lavender has become rather tired of the world, he feels that he has lived long enough, and just wants to end it, get it over and done with. Huh.
-Josephina Gaga-a
on Wednesday, June 22, 2011
When there's nothing left to do, blog I guess. Things have been really boring lately, even with only 7 days of school left, I have been feeling awfully down, although that's probably just Lavender taking my place.
Double IT, bludged.
Math, meh.
Psychology, awesome.
Tutor period? African. (some guys from Africa came and talked to us about life there and education and whatnot).
Getting new timetable due to subject change? Yay And nay. (Probably due to the fact that as a result i'm changing English classes (boo!) because it clashed with the subject I wanted to do (Literature) so now I have English when I would usually have Economics (the subject I dropped).
Double English? Lol, bludge.
Sport training? Meh.
Getting home and not being able to see Elizabeth? Sigh.
Tutor? Productive but made me want to sleep.
Missing Angry Boys because it starts when tutor finishes and ends when I get home, and being unable to watch it on iView because we have no Internet for several weeks? Major facepalm, even though the show kind of blows o.o
Being bored? Very yes.
Ending blog post? Probably.
-Josephina Gaga-a
Posting for the sake of remaining active. Oh what the heck.
Something occurred to me, it's almost like, im doing all of this madness on purpose. Because looking back to the lead up to June 1, I actually enjoyed it. The sadness, the feeling of hopelessness, my refusal to let go of Lavender. and now it's starting all over again. It's almost... like a game.
-Josephina Gaga-a
on Thursday, June 9, 2011
Woke up at 7:20 today, decided to take a later train because I felt like it. And because of my lazy sister, I was very, very late. Got to school at 10pm, and then proceeded to cram for maths exam part 2. It actually ended up not being so bad, and I felt I did better than the first part, which really, was terrible.
Got back to Sunshine just in time before Elizabeth was about to leave, and she gave me a ridiculous rectangular oval-shaped rock with googly eyes, which she and her friends thoughtfully named Boggle Sexy Gaga. It's silly, and shall be our child. wat.
Got home incredibly bored, spent most of the evening trying to entertain myself but with no luck. It's so dull around here, I really need something to do o.o
On a side note, Lavender is slowly beginning to revert to his original self. My chances of there being a fourth descent into darkness? Rising slowly each day. Anyway, heading off to bed because well i'm a tired bored person. Oh and did I mention I had a day off tomorrow?
-Josephina Gaga-a
on Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Woke up at 7:10 today, almost panicked about being late for the Ethics exam. because ethics is a pretty serious subject... (lol fuck no it's terrible). I guess to pass the time during the exam I involuntary couldn't stop thinking about Elizabeth, but eh, that did little to hinder what I was doing o.o Came out relatively fine, finished half an hour early, considering it is a massive bullshit-fest anyway. Spent the next 3 hours studying for the psychology exam... and got a massive headache. The actual turned out to be well... a lot easier this time round, probably because half of it was freaking multiple choice, but then again, I was fighting with a headache while doing it, so ow. O_o
Managed to finally see her this afternoon, but I promptly had to go anyway, and plus her mum didn't really like me spending too much time with her 3: But well, simply being able to see her is good enough for me. :)
Came home still with the horrible headache, then proceeded to shower and go to bed early (6pm) and skipped tutor only to wake up 4 hours later thinking I hate slept for ages and had also missed Angry Boys. raeg.
End of blogging capacity. Oh, math part two exam tomorrow. I am so dead D:
-Josephina Gaga-a
on Monday, June 6, 2011
So, day one of exams. Managed to wake up at quarter to 7 (thank you Born This Way, you make some pretty good alarm material, especially the uplifting (pun intended) The Edge of Glory. Lul. Got to school about half an hour before the English exam, spent that time well, mucking around. And screaming out loud to make me feel better. Well, in terms of keeping out stress and nerves, it works, okay? x)
Got out of the English exam fairly satisfied, managed to finish all two essays and language analysis, chilled/studied for a fair bit before the Economics exam at 2pm. The results of that I can say are... alright. May have sounded a bit more pessimistic than I would have liked, probably because I had no idea about 1 question and had a blank on another.
The rest of the day was rather uneventful, headed home, gave the mX to Elizbeth's mum at the store and promptly departed*. Went home, had dinner then went back to tutor for more revision on the maths exam tomorrow. And now he I am again. Ending a blog post.
-Josephina Gaga-a
*Elizabeth's mum is kinda acting as a barrier between us it seems, she finds our behaviour particularly strange, especially with the hugging. Oh and she says I should be home studying insteading of raiding the shop all the time. Which I clearly don't. :/
**Somebody help me, Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall has been on non-stop for at least an hour a day... and i'm still not sick of it yet. Hurry up and release another single/ album Coldplay! :(
on Friday, June 3, 2011
Lavender, he finally came back... I guess it wasn't that long... but he seems... different. No longer out to kill me, but rather, as a friend. A friend. A friend...
As of current he occupies my mind once again, but those previous thoughts of death no longer seem to plague me like previously. But I can be sure about one thing. One that could be particularly worrying.
The timer may has been reset. As I previously predicted, if I were to survive the events of June 1, the cycle would start all over again, and quite possibly... Lavender may revert to his original state come next June.
Let's see how this'll manage. For now, I'm glad to have him back. And as far as I can see, he just wants to be normal. Or maybe it's just me going crazy again. :)
-Josephina Lavender Gaga-a
postscript: In the meantime, I watched episode 6 of doctor who. wat. the. AWESOME.
As of current he occupies my mind once again, but those previous thoughts of death no longer seem to plague me like previously. But I can be sure about one thing. One that could be particularly worrying.
The timer may has been reset. As I previously predicted, if I were to survive the events of June 1, the cycle would start all over again, and quite possibly... Lavender may revert to his original state come next June.
Let's see how this'll manage. For now, I'm glad to have him back. And as far as I can see, he just wants to be normal. Or maybe it's just me going crazy again. :)
-Josephina Lavender Gaga-a
postscript: In the meantime, I watched episode 6 of doctor who. wat. the. AWESOME.
on Wednesday, June 1, 2011
New month. New season. (Pokemon-wise, too!) Woke up at 7am this morning, which is new because usually I would wake up much later. Won't go into details of what the hell happened for most of the morning, because i'm sure it's too exciting to talk about -end sarcasm-
Periods go as follows.
Double IT. eh, revision.
Math. eh, revision.
Psychology. Personality, and eh, revision. Oh and I scraped an A+ in my test on mental health which was awesome, but funnily enough I do worse on multiple choice than in short answer as of now. heh
Tutor Period: basically just did meditation in the chapel, or more like just falling asleep all period.
Double Economics: Well, teacher was away, spent the double doing... nothing. (okay not really, there was some revision (sigh) and that sudoku game I wasted a whole period on but didn't finish)
Sport training was pretty empty, considering our coach (who is also my economics teacher) was away, leading to aforementioned absentees. Afterwards, chilled in the school library before accounting lecture at 6pm, where Wikipedia races happened, from a range of topics such as Taeyang to bulimia nervosa, and potatoes to homosexuality happened. Hehe.
Before the accounting lecture we got free pizza, which was awesome, and as of the lecture itself, it was pretty good. Described by my friend Gary as being "better than the lectures he paid for", I guess I got quite a lot out of it as well.
So then it was about 7:30PM when we finished, headed home via train with Gary, in which I decided to catch the Williamstown train with him and switch at Footscray, and in the meantime joke about how I should text him to make sure that I was still alive. No matter, got home quite safely, and bored, and skipped tutor in the process as a result.
And now i'm bored and want to zzzzzzzz
-Josephina Gaga-a
To think that today would have been the day I committed suicide... on the second year since my aunt's death... hm. Ridiculous. And well, it's almost over, and as the Sign Painter once said, "you can't stop progress, we're all in it together."
Lavender, thank you for being the one who was always there for me. But I guess I have to move on now. For my own sake. But I'll miss you dearly, all the time we spent together for the past few years... but who knows, you might come back. But I might not remember you.
-Josephina Gaga-a
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